Thursday, May 27, 2010

About Blank

I've looked everywhere for it. I read books which a few people suggested, even the Bhagvad Gita, but couldn't find it. I wandered for hours on the streets of Chennai, watching people go about their lives, and checked if i could find it in their lives. No.

I stared at the girl crossing the road to the other side, hoping to find it in her eyes when she turns around. I waited for her to, but she didn't look back. She was on the phone.(With her boyfriend, probably)I stood for hours on the seashore to see if it was in the sea. No. Not there. I left my home and went far away to a distant land hoping that i would find it there. The end result was knowledge that things which can't be found at home are seldom found away from it. I came back and watched my parents go through their grueling routines at 50. I spent hours trying to put myself in their shoes and figure out how they manage to do the things they do. I was left with a headache and a very poor image of myself as a son.

I looked at the less fortunate on the train. I searched their corroded plates and my HDFC salary account. It was pretty much the same but not the thing i was looking for. I listened(mostly) to Pink Floyd, Bob Dylan, U2 and Coldplay. I read their lyrics on the internet for hours,but couldn't find it in their lines. So i stopped for a moment to write this to make sure I know what I am searching for. As it turns out, I don't. Do you know what you are searching for?



12 comments:

spunkysaturnine said...

To quote the very people you listen to: No '...I still haven't found what i'm looking for' either!

shankyingill said...

we can search all we want throughout our lives oly to end up finding that , there s nothing to search for.

The Eternal Seeker said...

@spunkysaturnine

lol That song was running in my head the whole time i was typing the post.

The Eternal Seeker said...

@shanky

I am the Seeker my friend.If i cease to seek,i cease to exist. Search shall continue.

Echoes! said...

Interesting. And I think Bono knew what he was looking for - he just couldn't find it. My interpretation - anyway.
As I see it, everyone searches for inner peace, contentment. Maybe the same for you? :P

The Eternal Seeker said...

@echoes

All of life's questions answered in one blog comment :p

Echoes! said...

Lol. More like all of life's questions defined. Indeed.

The Eternal Seeker said...

@echoes

agreed :)

Rahul Acharya said...

what we want varies within ourselves from time to time...the question is Do u kno what u want at tht particular time??

dreamer said...

the answer is elusive.

Malesh Ponnusamy said...

Stop seeking and start living for the moment ;-) Your post reminds me of the Alchemist story by Paulo Coehlo. There is a profound meaning in the ending. Guess that sums up the quest :) Happy seeking :)

The Eternal Seeker said...

@malesh yes brother. practicality would suggest that.