Thursday, February 4, 2010

Wanderer

On a lousy Sunday evening, a few months back, I was sitting on my couch watching the 8th Season of Friends for the 800th time. Mathew wasn’t funny. Jenifer wasn’t hot. I looked at the clock and it seemed like someone was dragging the minute hand back when it tried moving in front. The walls of my house were closing in on me. There was absolutely nothing going on in my life which remotely excited me. The walls of my house seemed to get smaller by the minute. I had been reeled in by a meaningless routine which systematically destroyed my peace. I wanted to get out.But I didn't know where to.


I wore my sneakers, took my i-Pod and headed out of my house. I hadn't been to Elliot's Beach in a really long time. And before i knew it I was standing by the shore. With my earphones on I couldn't hear a thing around me. I looked around and saw that I was in the company of total strangers in the twilight.

You're in control, is there anywhere you wanna go?
You're in control, is there anything you wanna know?
The future's for discovering
The space in which we're travelling
From the top of the first page
To the end of the last day
From the start in your own way
You just want somebody listening to what you say
It doesn't matter who you are
It doesn't matter who you are


With the music blaring and the waves rising up till my thighs I felt alive. There was peace and calm. I felt the cold sea water on my feet as the waves receded. I wanted to dissolve in the water and flee. The water made love to my feet and I relished every single movement. I closed my eyes and the first thing that flashed in my mind was the Besant Avenue road. And without even putting a thought to it I was on the road once again.

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can't deny it
Can't sell it or buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on


Bono's song supporting Aung Suu Kyi's struggle in Burma suddenly seemed like a carpe diem written out to me. I kept walking. The long road leading into the darkness of the night opened my eyes to the fact that in all these years of living in Bessi I haven’t once stopped to see the beautiful trees on the side of that road. The cool breeze sent a chill down my spine. (I also noticed a small idol on the side of the road and wondered who on earth placed it there!)I still wasn't sure where I was going or what I was going to do next. But my feet kept moving and the music kept playing.

The day can never happen waiting for the hurricane
If we look to far ahead today is gone
You will always miss the moment waiting for the hurricane
Cause the fear of future hides the sun

If you can`t seem to find new oceans and a little bit more
Slowly we will fall if we lose sight of the shore
In the race to be the better or best
Don`t miss it, the joy of being, or you will never rest

So unchain your mind
Unchain your mind


Before the voice faded out I was near Malar Hospital en route to Vidya Mandir. Why? No reason.

Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life
is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away


After about 2 hours I came back home all drenched and high on life. I was in a state of meditation. I had discovered something I love doing. Wandering.

' Dude what's the fun in walking to some place pointlessly?' That's the point! The pointlessness!'

I get a kick out of wandering to some place. I rediscover the beauty of places I have seen already. While wandering I can listen to music on a completely different level where my mind, body and senses are in tune. It makes me see beauty in things which people see every day but can’t appreciate. I live the moment and feel so much more alive.

Let the music never stop.. Let the road never end..


Source -

Song Lyrics in the order of their appearance in the post

1.Square One- Speed of Sound

2.Walk on - U2

3.Waiting for the Hurricane-Enigma

4.Dream On- Aerosmith

9 comments:

Malesh Ponnusamy said...

WoooooW!!!
Guess we should start a wanderer's club. Did this chennai for 10 long years and still doing it where ever i go - the pointless state of walking ;-) Though at that time i didn't have the luxury of ipod, though most of the songs i carried it on my heart ;-) The pointless amazing ain't it? enjoy the walks!!

On a lighter note rather serious one, don't walk alone for too long - u might end up enjoying it. Look for another pair of feet soon, u wudn't need ur ipod then, and it would be a lot better pointfull walk that would last the entire mile of life ;-)

The Eternal Seeker said...

@ malesh

lol when i find those feet which are willing to wander with me i won't let them touch the ground

Malesh Ponnusamy said...

@ Eternal Seeker :-)
Well said, gentleman! would love to watch that day when you carry "her" in your heart :-)

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The Eternal Seeker said...

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Pavithra Rajendran said...

Thats a very nice post...

The Eternal Seeker said...

@ Pavithra

Thanks :)

Sowmya said...

Came across this post just now and wow I thought I was the only one :) I usually walk along the whole stretch of the beach and then take a windingggg detour back home on weekends. What I love about walking (alone) is how it makes you feel elevated somehow. And observing people, various emotions I could get lost in it all. Try and observe children playing on the beach sometime, you tend to feel some unexplainable sense of warmth and goodness :)

The Eternal Seeker said...

@sowmya

And i thought i was weird! for me the music would suffice. i can simply listen to anything good n walk to pondy even weather permitting.